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Lorak
Feb 9, 2006 6:17:04 GMT -5
Post by badlass on Feb 9, 2006 6:17:04 GMT -5
I've sat at yourhouse for about an hournow and you still haven't come home. What will Floyd say? Where did his momma go? You did not lose him this time. There's not much here left of you so maybe I can keep Floyd around to remind me. Rest well. You were my best friend. Love ya- Your Core I wish I had had the chance to meet this kind lady .... my thoughts go with her friends and family. My tears DID flow when I read the above passage being of a motherly sort ..... my hopes and request is that Staff give Floyd to Core.
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Lorak
Feb 9, 2006 18:06:29 GMT -5
Post by Roh on Feb 9, 2006 18:06:29 GMT -5
Janus and Darwin already put Floyd, blessed, in Core's yard.
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Lorak
Feb 9, 2006 18:20:40 GMT -5
Post by darwin on Feb 9, 2006 18:20:40 GMT -5
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Lorak
Feb 20, 2006 1:10:14 GMT -5
Post by breannasmithy on Feb 20, 2006 1:10:14 GMT -5
I am so sad over the lost of one of our friends, my the lord be with the and family in rl and here that cared for her.
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Lorak
Feb 28, 2006 7:27:37 GMT -5
Post by darkphoenix on Feb 28, 2006 7:27:37 GMT -5
I didnt know her but my wishes are with her and her family.
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Lorak
May 5, 2006 18:50:40 GMT -5
Post by lucafer on May 5, 2006 18:50:40 GMT -5
at this point i am all teared up ... I recently lost a brother inlaw who was my boss till meet my sister. I was in disbelief when i heard he passed and i to did not cry...not cause i didnt care it involves me and bieng real young and finding out about death at an early age. My grandfather passed away.The day of his funeral,i lost it( tears in my eyes sorry). I do believe in god and Jesus. I believe everyone goes to heven unless devoted their life to satan. I think of death this way,Without Death Life would not exsist... I am very sorry to hear of this loss and know she is in a better place. Someone said that Lorak wished to change places with her grandson or doughter..maybe she did has anyone asked how the baby was doing ?. I am very new to MU and so far love it everyone has been so helpful(Specially LOA) and thank everyone.The poem i read Core is very well wrote and extreamly true... I want to say something bout Lorak even though i dont know her i do know of her and i feel thats all is needed to know her.
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Lorak
Jul 11, 2006 12:26:48 GMT -5
Post by Tchrspest on Jul 11, 2006 12:26:48 GMT -5
I never got to meet her but, my aunt died a couple years ago in 2003 and i know how all of her friends and family feel. But I would like to give my sympathy to her family and friends for their great loss. I've heard that she was nice and that she was a great woman, I've heard it from some of the most respected people in the game. I truely belive everything and hope everyone is okay and not sad. My best wishes to her family.
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Lorak
Oct 11, 2006 19:12:31 GMT -5
Post by ShawtyGangstaBoo on Oct 11, 2006 19:12:31 GMT -5
hey lorlak, how's it goin up there?? you savin a spot up in heaven for all of us mu players?? i'm sure they're loving you up there. we all miss you lots. im sure those wings look great on you. beautiful angel aren't you. we miss you and love you im sure there's an mu shard up in heaven, what's it like?? we love you!!! <3 michelle
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Lorak
May 11, 2007 6:08:33 GMT -5
Post by zed0162 on May 11, 2007 6:08:33 GMT -5
I did not know her, but after reading all of this I have a few things to say. 1) I wish I did know her, 2) This is definately how a shard should be, everyone who posted something on here shows that ya care in one way or another, a shard should be like a family, there will always be good and bad people, 3) I am sorry to hear a bout the loss, and I give deepest sympothy for family and friends, 4) I'm sure theres an MU shard up in heaven and I bet there are no noob beggers and such to ruin the fun of playing, or any of those people who just annoy you on gameplay, and dont think "Oh how can he say that" cause I know we all have had some people who are just annoying and some bad experience with a begger newb hehe
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Lorak
Jun 20, 2007 21:33:50 GMT -5
Post by soullio on Jun 20, 2007 21:33:50 GMT -5
i have been playing for 28 day's so i dont know lorak but i am crying like hell right now i dunno y maybe the kindness of this woman or just the thing's every1 is saying about her i wish i had met her abd honestly hate myself for not discovering this game earlier and getting to know her im suck in word's so i hvae nothing further to add (if i have typos i cantr see the,m my eyes are watery)
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Lorak
Jul 22, 2007 0:39:42 GMT -5
Post by Sarena on Jul 22, 2007 0:39:42 GMT -5
I didn't know Lorak at all but regardless i'm sorry to hear of anyone passing for any reason. I'm terrible with words but, but Lorak my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am new to MU too. I did not know Lorak, but reading everyones posts about her, shows how much she was loved, and what a good person she was. My prayers are with all her friends and loved ones.
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Lorak
Feb 27, 2008 22:59:29 GMT -5
Post by Roh on Feb 27, 2008 22:59:29 GMT -5
It's been... almost twenty-five months since Lorak left us. 25 is one of my favorite numbers, but I don't like its use here. While I couldn't think of anything to say at the beginning of this month, I knew I had to say something. It has taken some time to generate the feeling needed to say what I'm saying, given that I'm a very unemotional person, directly related to certain famous statues.
Over these years, this thread has provided me with regular bleeding. Not literally, but figuratively. Bleeding of my heart. Whenever I see Lorak's name, whenever I see that someone has written something here, I sour. I shrink away. I don't like being reminded of the loss of Lorak, yet I think about her often. It's my nature to meditate on difficult subjects until I find my own resolutions. As I associate death with a feeling of helplessness and inevitability, I don't see death in such a tragic light that most people prefer to veil it under. Deaths as a result of war or strife are not very surprising to me, and it's not often that I even pretend to be kind to people who have lost loved ones unexpectedly.
As I said previously, in what some people have described as a crowning moment in my time here, I knew Lorak very well. I would say that on some topics, we knew each other intimately. She and I shared a lot of closeness and I don't think I'll ever forget that. When I first encountered Mercury, I will admit that I thought he was an average guy, not very likable but not altogether unlikable either. Enter my apathy toward people in general. A greeting here, a greeting there to prevent embarrassment or misunderstanding. Then came the first time that she came to me about it. I was baffled, somewhat, because I wasn't very aware of the situation and I had no idea that Mercury was such a despicable person. Not long later, Core came to me and explained that Mercury was bad news. I consoled Lorak, initially for long periods as she spun away from Mercury's abuses with deep emotional wounds. Later, these periods became shorter. Eventually, the staff did step in and administer the new rule, as well as giving Mercury a solid boot. Lorak wasn't exactly happier, but she was definitely less stressed. She logged on less, aware that some people were upset with her about originating a ban against staff-recognized marriages on MU. For a while, she and I did not speak very often. My opportunities to spend time with her became shorter and shorter as the situation with her granddaughter became more serious and time-consuming. At the same time, her migraines were worsening to the point that she couldn't function for several days. When she emerged from her pain, it was always to dire news of her granddaughter.
On one unusual day, I logged on to stumble into a conversation between Core and Lorak, who were both sitting on the famed bench. Lorak was apparently in a lonely mood, not surprising due to the depression that most people would be suffering in her situation, and Core was insisting that Lorak find some companionship. I made some remark and started to leave, but Core told me to come back. She told me to sit next to Lorak while she listed various characteristics that made me a good suitor. "He's a good guy... and he's single!" I seem to remember. I laughed it off, at first, because, as I explain to a lot of people, I wasn't out hunting for a relationship at the time. But Lorak shyly opened up to me. We became close and I was glad to lend her my shoulder. Despite the closeness and our very serious discussions regarding a romance, it is my official statement that one never came to be. We were affectionate friends. Throughout January, I was increasingly alarmed that her logins were even more sparse and each time she would only say that things weren't going well and she'd leave again. Core occasionally told me that Lorak had logged in shortly only to pass word that her situation was eroding. Core frequently became emotional, sharing some of the stress. The announcement here was my first notification about what happened. I was not close to very many who knew Lorak. In the time after her passing, there were a few people who would see the announcement and ignorantly ask, publically, "Who's Lorak? Did she die?" Apparently the monument was not very obvious. At first, I refused comment, but then I became heated. I berated some people on their blunt application of badly-chosen words to the fresh wounds of those of us who actually knew what was happening. Some people were miffed that I would lecture them about social standards regarding death in our culture, that one does not simply bring it up in regular conversation in the same manner as any other topic. Imagine that, me, lecturing about social standards! I, the great champion of modern counterculture and a furious gladiator fighting for independence from the arena of silly rituals. While I am glad that very few people come to me and bring up the subject, I also believe that people who pass the monument regularly without knowing its purpose should be enlightened. I am always willing to direct people here for an explanation when I don't feel competent in describing the situation. Hopefully, I have answered some questions and given some thought to those of you who may have been there. I apologize if my openness offends anyone, but I am an open person and I believe that Lorak would have liked to have been remembered truthfully - not necessarily because she was truthfully a kind person, but because she valued such virtues as truth and trust. I still keep a few momentos to remind myself of the anguish, to remind myself that I am human and she was human. Some months after the news, I took Core to the place where Lorak's house stood. Core cried and spent a long time confiding, out-of-game, about how close they had been. Afterward, Core was able to find peace with the situation, which she had been unable to do for all of that time. Her sadness was such that visiting our online community would reduce her to helpless sobbing. My emotional outbursts usually ended with the famed Roh spending some time decompressing. Occasionally, I wrote poetry. A lot of it was tossed into a wastebasket; I couldn't write anything that brought satisfaction. Eventually, I came to revisit this topic in a professional essay about romance, and I believe that I did so with appropriate gentleness. While on the topic of poetry and essays, I was sitting in one of my advanced english courses one afternoon when my instructor abruptly asked me if I had experienced any serious loss of a close friend or relative. I related, casually, that a romantic interest had recently passed. My instructor was thunderstruck while fellow students had mixed reactions, a few of them laughing and taking "the boy who cried wolf" stance and attempting to provoke me about it. As a frequent jokester, my antics were known to all, and they believed this was just another attempt to pull one over on them. For the rest of the class, the instructor inquired about it. Finally, she took to heart that I didn't really want to open up about the situation in front of uneducated heathens. After the class ended I explained what had happened and my instructor cried. She asked me if I had used the event as inspiration in any of my writing, and I replied, truthfully, that I hadn't. She assured me that if I were to use such sensitive emotional subject matter in anything I wrote that she would not be quick to tear it apart. I shrugged it off, I didn't want special treatment just because it happened to be close to Valentine's Day and my "girl" had just died. To say it like that made my instructor more emotional (which stressed me out; I get stressed when women cry) and since then, I haven't really spoken to many people about Lorak. Some of my close friends who met Lorak have heard my protestations, lamentations and sermons, and that's about it. I suppose Core was satisfied that Lorak and I became closer, and Lorak wasn't so lonely when I was there for her. I suppose Mercury is satisfied with how he was shunted from her life, wherever he is, as he's probably unaware of what has happened. He probably doesn't even remember me, much as I barely remember him (I don't bother keeping mental notes about jackholes). I know Lorak's family wasn't happy that she departed and I hope they know her friends share their pain. Personally, I believe that it is a tragedy. I've said it repeatedly and I will continue to repeat it. It was a tragedy. Her passing, coupled with her family's plight and her health problems and her stress, had to be very difficult for everyone involved, not just us. And Floyd lives on, make no mistake.
Once upon a time, a lovely woman sat upon a bench in Britain. Then she was gone.
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Lorak
Feb 6, 2009 14:27:44 GMT -5
Post by Roh on Feb 6, 2009 14:27:44 GMT -5
It's been three years, with an extra day or two. Last year's anniversary met a very torn-up Roh, again, but this year not so much.
A couple months ago I confronted a lot of negativity in my life and I found in myself a pit of despair on the subject of Lorak that I had very much underestimated. Through my particular semi-religious philosophy of choice and through my own methods of "dealing," I've finally resolved my emotions on the subject of Lorak (with great help from a form of meditation derived from the Three Wisdoms) and found my small rigpa, the fruition of my resolution of suffering and affliction (Tibetan and Sanskrit don't translate easily, do they?). I think that she would be glad that I'm no longer mourning. I will always hope that the marks she left on us all will produce a better future.
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Lorak
Feb 8, 2009 9:05:54 GMT -5
Post by kristeena on Feb 8, 2009 9:05:54 GMT -5
To Lorak who made such deep impressions on the peeps at MU. I did not know this lady but wish I had been so fortunate. What wonderful tributes to her that you all have sent. May I add mine also that she may find such good companions with her fellow angels. To be sure she is in His care.
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